Category Archives: Writing

The last time I was here I didn’t own a smart phone. It was also the day before the Brexit Referendum, and before Pandemic-anxiety began to deeply mediate how we negotiated urban space.  But right now, I can’t yet touch base in this urban endlessness due to the disorientation caused by fighting off the intrudingContinue reading “London: 2022”

I’ve not been doing very well over the last year. Despite managing to keep making the work, I can’t locate a source of inner-well being. The atmosphere feels different since the initial optimism (what I’d say felt like a pause to capitalist-realist life) of those early months of 2020, when enough of the population wereContinue reading “Post-Covid psychological state.”

I don’t write as much as I used to, partly because of the mental battle to keep focus, when it is constantly at threat of being ‘stolen’, (to steal Johan Hari’s term). It’s also, partly because I get locked into an inner conflict about the validity of the point I’m about to make in thatContinue reading “The fear of speaking about the political causations of (your) mental distress”

Roughly 20 years to the day there was a news story that basically changed the way I saw the world. It was a story about an asteroid, that was given the name ‘2002 nt7’, being on a potential collision course with the earth. Bizarelly this was reported on the BBC children’s new program ‘Newsround’, with theContinue reading “NT7 2002 (I became ‘this’ artist)”

Mark Fisher took his own life this day five years ago. And it felt too emotional, to say that I’d never ever really met him. And I feel like a prick writing about it, because I have met friends of his, and I could see how much pain their loss gave them. However, Mark Fisher’sContinue reading “Mark Fisher”

14 years ago, I’d just turned 24 and left university. My art was, kind of, blossoming, and taking in many new approaches. As things progressed, the financial crash happened, and who knows how much these events change the course of our individual lives, but I feel it’s safe to say that I went one way,Continue reading “An overview of the last 14 years”

So here we are, at the end of the 2010s… Despite my ambivalence towards today being Christmas day (ambivalent to the point of having my heart and mind changed by future happenstance), dates have always held their symbolic sway. Perhaps, you could argue, too much. Nonetheless, we are about the leave the 2010s, and IContinue reading “Personal summary of the 2010s: it’s time to learn to live”

As the 2010s draw to a close, I am thinking of the late Mark Fisher. I first discovered his book ‘Capitalist Realism’ in the summer of 2010, and as I subsequently began to discover his many articles and essays kept upon his blog page Kpunk, it was like I’d opened a concealed crate inside ofContinue reading “Ignore your cynical sentiments, GE2019 is truly a chance to overcome the politics of despair.”

I recently completed a dissertation at masters level. I recently made an art and music, film odyssey that has received great feedback from nearly everyone who’s seen it. Interestingly both of these projects dealt with a lot personal experience loop of impostor syndrome: the feeling of never being good enough, whatever one has achieved isn’tContinue reading “Punching above your weight (reflections on impostor syndrome)”