John B Ledger

42 years of not trying hard enough (to be normal)

By the end of next week I will know the conclusion of an assesment for a diagnosis. The amount of little wars I’ve reactivated on myself from years of accumulating theories of doing life wrong. Many have accused me of having a victim mentality, and there is some evidence. Yet it was and has beenContinue reading “42 years of not trying hard enough (to be normal)”

The Final Battleground of Thatcherism

“The Final Battleground of Thatcherism” (160x100cm) It’s been a very long time, recalibrating after a personal milestone of an exhibition. Reconsidering what affect art in an age where image bombardment has the same impact as a climatic shift. But also realise you must keep going. This work’s title came from one of my last conversationsContinue reading “The Final Battleground of Thatcherism”

NEVER BULLY ANYONE. …and if you feel drawn in. If you feel that desire to get ‘one over’ someone in a more vulnerable position to you, stop and walk away! I was sat on the 20:45 bus home this evening. The warmth in the UK atm is wierd (weird but also worringly the new normal)Continue reading

I think my 20 year old self may have a lot to tell me tbh… As somebody who is slowly but surely coming to terms with realising he most likely has a neurodiverse mind, I would most likely find a version of myself more commited to celebrating difference than at any other point in hisContinue reading

The Return of Nasty

Of late I’ve come to embrace the term ‘hot take’. Always too scattered in mind and physical movement to be academic, I love a term that is short-form for “this might be a mad idea, but…’ – and it sits more comfortably with the creative minded. A couple of years ago Novara Media did aContinue reading “The Return of Nasty”

Randomly, probaby between two songs by The Cure:” High Just like Heaven

“There’s nowt new under the sun” Everything is always in a process (long or short-form) of morphogenesis. Even in repetitive movements. Our perception of repetition misses this because of the trauma capitalist acceleration inflicts on time itself: we constantly feel retrograded, fighting our way out of a mannequin museum dedicated to our own experiences. OR,Continue reading

I believe in it because I want to believe it is true. But so far, I have no evidence.

A human world where things actually work out well for the 99 percent.

“It’s a bit of a joke”: 20 years since 0oon Badger

The above title is a lyric from Pink Floyd’s iconic Syd Barrett-era ‘Pipers at the gates of Dawn’. It’s seemingly a throw-away rhyme to go with ‘cloak’. There again, don’t our ‘throw away’ moments of creativity sometimes turn out to be our most poetic, our must truthful? Barrett-era Floyd was short-lived. Yet in this oneContinue reading ““It’s a bit of a joke”: 20 years since 0oon Badger”