I don’t practice self care.

I have tried, but I have yet to find a voice in my head that likes me, and tells me I deserve to like myself.

I have innate sense of life injustice and of things not adhering my way of things, that has maintained the impulse to create as a rejection of life ways I know are harmful, but it isn’t self-care, because it is equally damaging.

I drink to allow myself to feel emotions that my inner monologue tries to perpetually tell off, but drinking also causes so much harm.

Sorry for not having any positive answers. I don’t, especially on a Saturday when you see the rest of world exercising their right to leisure and pleasure.

I am trying. I’m close to concluding that I have a mixture of ADHD and light Autism, but whether I’ll get a diagnosis, and whether this diagnosis will help me forward isn’t something I am certain of atm.